cowards and how I hate them

Let me put it to this way, if you are in a relationship and have been in a relationship for 6 1/2 years then you dont leave the person by leaving a note. This happened to a family member of mine and I have to say its the most cowardly move I have ever seen in my life. You lived with and loved someone for 6 1/2 years and you can just write them a note and say I love you so much and care about you but not in love with you and leave while the other person is at work. How can someone do that to someone they said they love and wanted to spend the rest of their life with? I understand that people fall out of love and people break up for many many reasons that I dont have the problem with, I have a problem with how it was handled. It is taking me writing on here about it to keep from calling or texting or emailing him and telling him just how screwed in the head he really is. I have never seen this family member devastated like they are right now. He not only lost his boyfriend he lost his best friend and that breaks my heart.
I really thought I knew this person, he has been a part of our family for 6 1/2 years, he has been through a lot of stuff within the family and I feel that he turned his back on all of us by deciding to leave the way he did. How does he think that made my brother feel? It made him feel that he meant nothing to him and that the last 6 1/2 yrs did not mean anything to him either. It just makes me so mad that I cant even think of what to say anymore.

oh how men suck

To start this with I am very pissed off and shaking. I am using this to vent about how stupid men can be sometimes(most of the time) and not have a clue that what they are doing stuff that is very contradictory of what they are saying. If I guy tells you that they love you and want to be with but yet lies to you about when he is working and when he will be able to pick you up because you have no car to get anywhere and live 5 miles from the closest gas station and I am not walking 5 miles in 100 heat NOT happening. Lets start with what I gave up to be here with my bf. This was how it was supposed to have been. I came down here to here Florida, get things set up for the kids to come down and everything will be great. This is WHAT really happened. My daughter and I drove my bf's truck down because my car broke down the night before I was supposed to leave for Florida(should have taken that as a hint but was very thankfully it happened at home and not during the drive to Florida). My daughter and I get down here and we find a house for all us me, my kids and the bf. Oh I might add that him and I were a couple in Ohio when he lived there and things didnt work out. I came down here to visit him about 6 months after we broke up. One thing led to another and boom we were back together. Well once we had lived together for 3 weeks, he had weirded my daughter out by talking to himself ALL the time even if you were in the room with him he would talk to himself. He paced the house while talking to himself and that just really bothered my daughter since she was at the house with him while I was at work. Well my daughter and I went back to Ohio for a Jeff Dunham show that I bought months before for the kids dad bday present. I came back without my daughter. That was one of the hardest decisions I have had to ever make. I came back not because of my bf I came back because I have a job here and dont have a job in Ohio anymore. So, I still have no car.
I have a studio apt because I could no longer live with my bf. My kids are in Ohio and I have no car and no money. This was not how it was supposed to have been. It was supposed to have been me and my kids down here not me without my kids.
Sometimes he is so just untrustworthy and just so full of crap. He tries to do nice things but at the same time be so selfish. Like my bday he gets me a cake, calls a few of his friends up(since I have no way of making friends right now) and has a surprise party for me VERY sweet but then the owner of the place gives me this espresso martini(YUMMY) for my bday and I take a drink of it and I go to the bathroom, come back to the table and go to grab my drink and its empty. MY stupid idiot of a bf had drank the rest of my bday drink. He saw nothing wrong with it but I sure did. He has gone through my stuff looking for something this is when we lived together instead of just calling me asking if he could use it. I found out he was in my stuff when I saw that a couple of things had been moved. He saw nothing wrong with that either. I am all about my space and privacy and give that to him also. OH did I mention on my bday that I had to walk home from work because he was at the bar getting drunk. I get off at 4 on my bday I worked til 3:50 I tried calling him 8 times, left a voicemail and also sent him text messages. He showed up at my house at like 4:15. I was so upset with him but then the surprise party and then him drinking my bday drink. I think he is either bi polar or has multiple personalities or something.
I am no longer physically attracted to him and want nothing sexual with him at all now. I have tried to end things with him but I have to depend(I use this word loosely) on him right now and he thinks that means we are still together. I have said to him we need to take a break from this relationship thing but that we are still going to be friends and he agreed. I know that right now I cant make the complete break from him. I know this will sound bad but you have to do what you have to do to survive and that is what I am trying to do is survive.